Motherless Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Everyone asks me "why don't you and your mom don't talk?"
I just tell them she abandoned me
I mixed some lies to the truth
The truth is it all fuckin started after I got out of the mental hospital
Things weren't the same
I'm going through a slump
Things between me and my mom got worst
We tried to make it work, but I kept rebelling and fucking up
Things got better after I went back to school
I would like to thank Jeff for that
Things were good for while, then I went into the army
I got discharged with a personality disorder

[Chorus]
Now after all the shit I've done
I think I can't rebound from this
Say hello Antonio, I take responsibility
Now you are motherless
I couldn't be the perfect song
I saw shit through my eyes
Accepted my own lies
Didn't realize that you did care about me
I pushed you far away from existence
Made everyone believe I truly hated you
My harsh actions broke you more then it broke me
I made you to be the bad person and for that I'm sorry

[Verse 2]
I get hit by a car and oh my God, I'm okay
I go to the hospital for 8 hours
I call my god mother and informed her
My mom comes and I'm mad
I didn't want her to see me like this
I felt so powerless
I felt so ashamed that I failed once again
I felt she was disappointed in me because of my mental illness
Like she couldn't take it anymore
So I played the asshole, and she played the victim
I guess to an extent, I'm the victim too
Shit got worst, then had to come up with cover stories
People though I truly hated my mom
I used to talk so much shit about her

[Chorus]
Now after all the shit I've done
I think I can't rebound from this
Say hello Antonio, I take responsibility
Now you are motherless
I couldn't be the perfect song
I saw shit through my eyes
Accepted my own lies
Didn't realize that you did care about me
I pushed you far away from existence
Made everyone believe I truly hated you
My harsh actions broke you more then it broke me
I made you to be the bad person and for that I'm sorry

[Verse 3]
I can't come to terms with my mother
That's why I don't bother
I won't be a man about it knowing things will never be the same
I can ask for forgiveness, but I don't deserve it
You'll always be my mom, and I'll always be your son
Through the thick and thing
We may never talk again
I don't think I'll have the heart to face the music
Knowing most of it is my fault
I've done a lot of fucked up things to you
In your face and behind your back
I am ashamed of my actions
I know I could break down from this long, dramatic road
I will act like I hate you because it's apart of who I am
But I don't hate you
I'm acting childish, I don't know why I'm so angry
If or when we do come to terms and make things right, even if it means it'll be a one time thing only
I'll be at peace we made things right

[Chorus]
Now after all the shit I've done
I think I can't rebound from this
Say hello Antonio, I take responsibility
Now you are motherless
I couldn't be the perfect song
I saw shit through my eyes
Accepted my own lies
Didn't realize that you did care about me
I pushed you far away from existence
Made everyone believe I truly hated you
My harsh actions broke you more then it broke me
I made you to be the bad person and for that I'm sorry

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